Tuesday, February 05, 2008
luck really isnt on me.... wonder if i had been cast a spell... i really wonder... tats the only thing i can tink of.. things really havent been going smoothly for me... 1 thing after another jus came crashing down on me.. anything can happen any day any time...
1st matter.. god.. i have not done anything bad to anyone.. not at all for the past 20 over years.. i kept telling myself that things do happen for a reason.. tats what everyone have been telling me... but y do u let me suffer 心死 and 心碎 within a yr.. i had nvr knew that both will happen to me.. at least not b4 1+ yr ago... y do u let me know abt things after so long... y do u arrange for what happened recently to happen... issit a test? do i really deserve to b treated in this way?
i m really really feeling miserable... ya... pple can say it easily.. ehh take it easy... dun do this lo dun do tat lo... then tis wun happen.. n so on.. but pls also do understand.. its my life.. i have my way of doing things.. like writing my blog.. its my habit of writing down how i feel.. jolly well dun read... some things, its easy to say but its nt easy to do.. esp when i m a girl... 一个把感情看得很重的人。。一个没有防人之心的人。。 mentally being tortured for over 1+ yr... some pple will say or bi la.. who ask u to b like this.. b like tat.. but trust me.. wait till it happens to u... but mayb i really deserved it... coz of 我的豆腐心。。。which i need to change... i dun knw hw i managed to pull thru.. tink coz of my family & SOME wonderful frens i had... frens.. i promised i will b fine.. & i will be.. i will cross over tis.. n start life all over again... thanx for all ur encouragement n company.. u know who u r... thru what had happened to b for the past 1yr.. u really do see who r ur true frens n who isnt.. u really do see whose worth ur effort to do things for them... mayb tats y i m being put to the test...
2nd matter today after sch.. went to bb caltex to wash my car.. abt to move off when tis stupid woman reversed her car WITHOUT checking behind! i saw her car coming towards me & i HORNED HER!!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT tat DIDNT make her STOP!!!!!!!!!!!! SHE WENT ON UNTIL SHE BANGED MY CAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! & the best thing is she REFUSED to ADMIT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! she say she nvr hear my horn & whatever whatever she can tink of la...
no experience = lugi.. didnt manage to force her to write down a statement.. so what if i got her particulars.. at the most i can only go idac & report case.. tats all i DID....
I CANT DO ANYTHING TO HELP MYSELF! I KNW ITS ME MYSELF & I BUT I DUN KNOW HOW TO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
god... can u jus let me move on peacefully..... let me be stronger.... & let me b more hard-hearted...
xiuxiu;
2:43 PM
